Opposite...

I was proven to myself that i am actually a brunnete fan..I notice it today when i compare all my dream boy...Begint with Edward Norton (oh,i really really as in really really like him)Johnny Depp Orlando Bloom James McAvoy .I really love the mysterios look in their eye..Of course the bod...dont forget thier slim but muscular body and hey im just a woman fantazising a good fairytale story.


Oh Well.....


They are the total opposite of my husband..and well i dont really think i need to describe it. ..I know now for myself that i love him and he can trust me with his heart.and its all that matters...

The truth is i am scared to know my true feeling about it..i just dont want anyone to know...im scared very scared...

day o day

I dont know what to say,i keep tapping this laptop for an hour browsing on what comes up in my mind.I am not into net-ing this past few day I have nothing I always tell myself not to share anything in here but today i just realize that theres really nothing to share about.What im telling is my daily routine.Cut the B S i am desperate to make my own money,not depending to my husband 24 hours..I felt that im not the Old May Ann..its not me anymore,i know...i am married things change, but faster than i thought.I am not born to be someone's pet(well,its not what i meant)but kudos for the woman who can stay in the house taking care of there kids and wait for her husband to arrived prepare dinner put bed in the kids and tommorow morning do the same thing.."good for you,you dont need to work..You can spend more time to your daughter,as you realize she's old enough to do her own laundry..I envy you" whooo...I am so naive not to look what i have now.Ugh,Sorry god sorry mike and sorry heather i feel so selfish to think of myself ...I will wait...it takes time..and i hope my patient is long enough for that..

Think Think Think Before You Pick!!!!

Last saturday we went to badcock to buy new love seat and couch...but before that we went in other furniture store like havertys,adcock,farmers furniture etc but end up in this store...we do not plan to buy stuff last saturday but that couch really is so comfortable...i mean it is really time for my old couc h to retire but i dont think our pocket are ready for that..Anyway,the negotiation went well and theyll send it to us(the furniture) on wednesday..Im excited i really want to decorate our house more..We also bought new center table and end table...a nice rug for the living room will be so nice which my husband bought also after me keep pushing him to look on that rug...Though we already have Lampshade i thought that might be pretty on our bedroom coz its white/black and our bedroom set is white...The lampshade is free if you buy more than 2000 usd cost of furniture so i really pick the best one i saw in the other badcock and tell to bessie (owner of badcock here in our town)to get that for me...All in all...it is a long day...

Okay...After 2 days...i wake up this morning with different idea..i want the G.I jane couch ...And the first thind i did is call my husband and tell him i change my mind oh boy he's mad hahahaha...he told me that i shoudnt decide then that i should think it for a while before i bought the furniture...but what can i do...i am freaking crazy hehehe...well he promise will drop by tonight to set the things straight up...and thank god the owner is a nice person they told us that we can call and drop bby there if we want something change...

well see then...wink wink

Wtha eht kucf!!!!

This maybe the end of it….to write all the sentiment you ve been keeping for so long…pero teka…dapat ba tlaga sa blog?…dapat mo nga ba tlagang ishare pa sa masang pilipino,amerikano,italyano at mga taga europa ang sarili mong hinanakit sa mundong ito…Sabagay,kung handa kang pagtawanan,intindihin,kutyain ng kung sino mang hindi mo nman kilala na poncio pilato..Siguro nga may K ka…
I was Angry..wow,ang tapang…ok let say I was mad…there you go,much better…GUstong gusto kong iexplain dito kung bakit pero mayroon talagang humahatak sa utak ko na ihinto ang kabaliwan ito..parang ang sarap sipain ng sarili kong puwet dahil sa pagpupumilit ng kamay kong mag pipindut dito sa kompyuter namin..
Ganu mo ba talaga matatantya kung tama na?kahit yata ang dyos minsan napasosobra sa pagbibigay…Minsan kasi kahit anong pilit mong maging maayos at maganda para sa lahat..lagi yatang kulang sa kanila… pesteng peste namn na yan kasi…sa sobrang tama lagi nalang resulta mali..bakit ba kc nauso si abel at cain…sa lahat sa kanila kung sino pa ung …….
Sabi nung iba magpasalamat ka at meron ka nyan at wala sila…Namisinterpret yata nung iba ung sinabi ko…Nagpapasalamat naman ako…at lagi ngang humihingi ng tawad sa kawalanghiyaan ko…ang sakin lang bakit ung iba sobra sobra na kulang pa rin sa kanila…bakit ba pilit nilang sinusuksuk sa utak ng manok na sila ang kawawa wala ng iba…ipasadyos nalang daw…nahawa na nga ako at pati sa sarili kong bibigg lumabas ang salitang bahala na ang dyos…ewan ko ba…parang may mali…Sakin lang..bakit mo iaasa sa itaas..kung alam mo nman na may kayang gawin ang manok… Pasensya na hindi ako sanay na magantay ng patak ng ulan…hindi ko ugaling kunsintihin ang sisiw at makitang ang inahin malapit sa bangin…HIndi ko alam..pero bakit kahit anong payo sakin nila na dapat ganun..hindi pumapasok sa utak ko…

Mga ateng,kuyang,inang,tatang….
ok lang ho ang komento at opinyon wag lang akong pagsabihan..sarado po ang utak ko sa kahit anong sermon nyo sa ngayon..Mabuhay kayo at maraming salamat…Salamat sa uunawa…

How can i say no!!!

Another gift from my husband…Ill be damn…hindi ko iniexpect na bibigyan nya ko ng gift last V-day..i thought its either a card and roses or just dinner outside…but this time no card and no roses…its a out of town weekend ,dinner outside and a brand new laptop(yeeyyyyyyyy)heather recieve a stuffDOG..ruff ruff..I left my old laptop to my parents so i stuck in our 2000 windows computer which is really not bad consider that no one really using it when i have the old one though its not working smoothly mas ok naman sya kaysa nung nagbabayad pa ako ng internet sa shop nung nasa pinas pa ko hahahahaha…I dont want to count my blessing i know for myself its too much for me to deserve all this thing..the Jewalay,Clothes,new Camerasss i have last december,Going back in pinas which is not cheap at all…now a new laptop..A good career for my behalf a healthy family and a good sweet loving daughter and a support for my in laws and parent what can i ask for..naks,muntik ng dumugo ilong ko..
sandali lang…maya na uli….babay muna

Pebrero(february)

Yesterday was heather 19month b-day...she develop alot...She's becoming more independent..february is a month of eye opener to me...I dont know if mike still want to have another child but the way he act feels like he want another one...Before,i am more insist to have another child...we are 5 children and im the youngest..i thought big family is more happier than small..but in this case living here in US is different story..Cost of living is too high for having kids..specially in this economy crisis..People getting more desperate and life is just getting fast and fast and more Faster...Sometimes i cant even catch up...

Being a stay at home mom...i myself consider as a desperate women to get job...And knowing that thered 20,000 + people got laid this year making me more weak

Work at home also not good...i wish i have but it just hard to do it...lot of the job is really to good to be true...Scam...lot of scam too...Now im just depending on what my husband can do for us...

Hoping next time will be my luck...

My little sunshine

this is my angel...yes,indeed my one and only daughter...



She made my life complete...19 month Heather Alexis Surdyka....